Cloud 9 about us being pregnant did not last too long. When I started the 6th week of pregnancy the world seems to turn around. I lost ALL my appetite on food. Yes, morning sickness kicked in and it was really hitting me hard without any signs.
I was literally vomiting every single drop of juice in my stomach EVERY morning. It was sour and bitter, I just couldn't stop it until I totally ruined the throat. I vomit at the trigger of cigarette smell, oily food smell and any kind of irritant that I've not thought of before. I vomit in the mid of the night, first thing awake, while driving to work (ever ready plastic bags in the handbag), on the way walking from carpark to office, in the office, after lunch, after dinner.... You name it. At least 10 times a day. And lasted from the 6th week to the end of 1st trimester.
Not a single food can make me feel hungry. Experienced friends advices me to munch on crackers, but I hate the taste. I went on days without being able to keep any food in stomach. Doctor gave me medicine but I felt guilty taking it. I lost 2kg from pre-pregnancy.
I'm constantly nausea, sleepy and drowsy. Not able to open my eyes most of the time at work, and had to take interval power naps to fuel up for the next few hours. By 9pm, usually I'm in bed, deep asleep. But the rhintis I developed during these times put extra stress on me. Irritants and smokes always cause the nostril to be blocked entirely leaving me grasping for air through the mouth.
I became so emotional, I cry for no apparent reason, I simply felt so guilty and lost cause I know I didn't eat right and kept my mind right for the baby in me. I thought I'm the worst mother in the world. The stress at work doubled my trouble. I lost my common sense in many things, getting mad at my hubby for nothing. My world just seemed to fall apart. Pregnancy.. Doesn't seem happy at all....
While having the 13 weeks scan, our usual gynae gave us a really hard blow. She told us baby's having a slight thicker "neck" but unable to explain nor confirm anything. Asked us to visit again next weekend to see her colleague for confirmation. I asked if it's really serious, she replied "unsure, could be and could be not". I was furious! How can a doctor gave such statement? So I decided to make my own research and found out the "neck thickness" she was talking about is the Nuchal Translucent and apparently she measured baby's NT at 2.5mm, which is at borderline. Anything thicker than that could mean a genetic disorder. And I couldn't afford to wait a whole 1 week to get confirmation, cause the window to check this is before 13w6d and I will be 14+ the following week. Did that gynae has any idea what she's doing?
So I found out a specialist clinic in PJ actually is expert in these tests. Made a call the following morning and managed to squeeze in an appointment. The gynae took a detailed scan on baby and told me there's nothing serious and recommended me to go for a blood test to have better confirmation. He gave a good report on the scan and mentioned my previous gynae could have mistakenly measured the wrong "thickness" thus gave that remark. Ah, such a relieved. But we still insisted to do the blood test, and waited a week for the result. The baby is low risk after all, as per the test result. And on the spot I've decided to ban this gynae.
Looking at our baby grew so much over the few weeks from a tiny dot to this, suddenly I felt my mood is lifted up again. Seeing the little one swimming around my tummy actively, waving at us in the scan.. I think, it's all totally worth it.
The 1st trimester is coming to an end, I slowly felt energy coming back to me. I heard the 2nd trimester would be much gentler to me compare to the 1st. Keeping all fingers and toes crossed.
During these difficult times, my hubby has really stood by me no matter how unrealistic I become. He did all he could to make me feel better and accommodate my irrational side all the way. I just couldn't ask for more. My mother, squeezed time from her work to make natural remedies to help with my vomiting and gas.. My besties, listening to my ramblings and rants. So much thank to these people, couldn't have make it without you.. Everyone of you T_T
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